Riches

 My Riches, come back! Where have you gone?

I miss my dreaded happiness, 

Why Can't I see you?

Why can't I hold you?

You were mine yesterday, 

But just like the darkness of the night 🌙,  you were gone by day.

1/06/2021

What is dead may never die

When I met you I wrote you a song,
of how beloved you make me feel,
how our love healed my wounds.
it was a beautiful song, even the angels sung it
the birds stopped to marvel at its perfection.

But ooh my love,
every day you have denied me for another,
and that old man time is here to steal away my song,
because for everyday I sang and you did not listen,
he stole a word, payment for using him on a lost cause.

now all I have is a hum,
my song is long forgotten.

kk,
22/04/2019

Blue birds sing

via GIPHY

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dream of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dream of
Dreams really do come true

Someday, I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
And the dreams that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can't I?

Well, I see trees of green and red roses too
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well, I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark
And I think to myself what a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
And also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands saying
How do you do?
They're really saying I, I love you

I hear babies cry and I watch them grow
They'll learn much more then we'll know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world

Someday I wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top
That's where you'll find me

Oh, somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dare to
Why oh, why can't I?

Visions of Gideon ~~~ Sufjan Stevens

I have loved you for the last time
Is it a video? Is it a video?
I have touched you for the last time
Is it a video? Is it a video?

For the love, for laughter, I flew up to your arms
Is it a video? Is it a video?
For the love, for laughter, I flew up to your arms
Is it a video? Is it a video?
Is it a video?

I have loved you for the last time
Visions of Gideon, visions of Gideon
And I have kissed you for the last time
Visions of Gideon, visions of Gideon

A Letter ....

To my dearest Fonsi,

What can I say? I already said I’m sorry a million times. Guess it has to sink in now, our love is gone forever. I’m never seeing your pretty smile again; you were the source of all my joy. I hate how much I need you, how much I’m jealous of how happy you are without me. You were the best I ever had and I miss you every day.

As I look over this burnt bridge, with smoke and smolders over my shoulder. I can’t help but to cry seeing you hold another’s hand. You brought me the entire world and I decided I no longer needed you in my life. Now every moment is like drowning in the depths, I can’t see you, I can’t feel you and I can’t breathe. Now all I do is sit and wonder why the sun keeps on shining, why the stars keep glowing above. Have they no idea that I threw away my world. That you took all the stars in my sky when you left? That I killed everything we ever had?

I know this letter will never find you. But I hope my love stays with you forever, that you remember the taste of my lips and how I held your hips. My breath on your neck and my kisses on your chest. That you remember the very first day we met, how unsure we were about what could be. Most of all I hope you remember how happy and fulfilled you made me. That grin you had when you rocked my world but I was too busy enjoying it. For:

Love and affection for me coupled with your

 Originality and style: that you were always

                              Understanding and caring with the

                                               Intensity of your emotions and

                                                             Every day that you made me smile

All these I choose to keep with me through life, and even though our stories are different now. I will never forget our journey together. Farewell love….

Yours forever,

KK 👼👼

14/04/2018

Please Stop Lying with me

Sometimes, I sit and wonder,
Is it all worth the while?
the feelings of jealousy mixed with lust,
feelings of enchantment and mistrust,

I thought that this time its going to be different,
that this time I found someone worth my while,
what a farce, what a lie, what a shame,
I'm too old for this,
too smart not to learn from my mistakes,

Took the time to let you in,
yet you'd never stay,
took my effort to make you comfortable,
yet your heart was always some where else,

why is it that I'm this vulnerable?
why can't I see yet I have eyes?
why can't I learn from my past mistakes?
why do I see you for what your not?

I thank God for my meekly nature,
though you break me to pieces,
all I can do is watch,
i don't have the heart to put up a fight,
you were my last straw,
Guess my clench was not strong enough,

now let me drown,
go back to my depths where I belong,
to the darkness where I'm at home,
to the nothingness that fills me inside,
here I'm safe, Here I'm all alone.

kk
07/09/2017

organs

I am sorry this is always how it goes
The wind blows loudest when you've got your eyes closed
But I never changed a single color that I breathe
So you could have tried to take a closer look at me
I am tired of punching in the wind
I am tired of letting it all in
And I should eat you up and spit you right out
I should not care but I don't know how

So I take off my face
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong
And I pull out my tongue
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong

I am sorry for the trouble, I suppose
My blood runs red but my body feels so cold
I guess I could swim for days in the salty sea
But in the end the waves will discolor me

So I take off my face
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong
And I pull out my tongue
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong
And I cough up my lungs
Because they remind me how it all went wrong
But I leave in my heart
Because I don't want to stay in the dark

-"organs" by of monsters and men