organs

I am sorry this is always how it goes
The wind blows loudest when you've got your eyes closed
But I never changed a single color that I breathe
So you could have tried to take a closer look at me
I am tired of punching in the wind
I am tired of letting it all in
And I should eat you up and spit you right out
I should not care but I don't know how

So I take off my face
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong
And I pull out my tongue
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong

I am sorry for the trouble, I suppose
My blood runs red but my body feels so cold
I guess I could swim for days in the salty sea
But in the end the waves will discolor me

So I take off my face
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong
And I pull out my tongue
Because it reminds me how it all went wrong
And I cough up my lungs
Because they remind me how it all went wrong
But I leave in my heart
Because I don't want to stay in the dark

-"organs" by of monsters and men 

high on hope

I think I am sick
I must be
I can't stop
I'm hooked
Hooked on hope
Hooked on that empty smile
Hooked to the dream
that it will work out eventually
But It doesn't
Just gets worse and worse
Who will save me now?
Or am I destined to drown?
I keep swimming to safety
And drifting back to you
I will drown if I stay
I need to go
I need that healing
Once in a lifetime sensation
To prove I'm alive
To show that I deserve something
That something that you refuse to give

kk


13/11/16

my little puppy

The beast never rests
Luring innocents into its dark lair
Using them without their consent
Digging into everyone's sanity
Stretching our good will
Disguised as holy
Pretending to be good
Sucking the good from the best
Giving a lolly
Yet Taking a life force
Demented, depressed, angry.
I'm done.
Acting the fool.
Hope i don't slip,
I have nothing else to offer
You have taken it all
So leave
Even the dead are left to decay in peace
 

Kk


12/10/16

lost boy

There was a time when I was alone
Nowhere to go and no place to call home
My only friend was the man in the moon
And even sometimes he would go away, too

Then one night, as I closed my eyes,
I saw a shadow flying high
He came to me with the sweetest smile
Told me he wanted to talk for awhile
He said, "Peter Pan. That's what they call me.
I promise that you'll never be lonely."
And ever since that day...

I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy," they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."



Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free



He sprinkled me in pixie dust and told me to believe
Believe in him and believe in me
Together we will fly away in a cloud of green
To your beautiful destiny
As we soared above the town that never loved me
I realized I finally had a family
Soon enough we reached Neverland
Peacefully my feet hit the sand
And ever since that day...

[2x]
Peter Pan, Tinker Bell, Wendy Darling,
Even Captain Hook.
You are my perfect story book
Neverland, I love you so,
You are now my home sweet home
Forever a lost boy at last

And for always I will say...

I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy," they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."

Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free


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Ruth-b "lost boy"

there's gold in them hills

I know it doesn't seem that way
But maybe it's the perfect day
Even though the bills are piling
And maybe Lady Luck ain't smiling

But if we'd only open our eyes
We'd see the blessings in disguise
That all the rain clouds are fountains
Though our troubles seem like mountains

There's gold in them hills
So don't lose heart
Give the day a chance to start

Every now and then life says
Where do you think you're going so fast
We're apt to think it cruel but sometimes
It's a case of cruel to be kind

And if we'd get up off our knees
Why then we'd see the forest for the trees
And we'd see the new sun rising
Over the hills on the horizon

There's gold in them hills
There's gold in them hills
So don't lose faith
Give the world a chance to say...

A word or two, my friend
There's no telling how the day might end
And we'll never know until we see
That there's gold in them hills

There's gold in them hills
So don't lose heart
Give the day a chance to start

There's gold in them hills
There's gold in them hills


Songwriters: Ron Sexsmith


Gold in Them Hills lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Chasing that light

In this dark room.
There hasn't been light for a while now.
I'm getting desperate,
i will rot here with no light.
But now i see a dim light in the distance
I rush..
My blood boils...
Now i have company..
But my rush quenches the light..
I'm alone again...
Chasing shadows..
Rotting in my corner...
Rushing towards mirages..
Hoping its the light in the prophecies..
Not learning my lessons..
Hoping its different...
Hoping it will burn the cob webs...
Not this rush..
Not this chase...
My blood will cool...
And one day i will get that light..
The one that my hurry will not extinguish..
The one that will burn my darkness away..
The one that will keep burning..
Even in the depths of my despair..

Kk
23/05/2016

all i need is some E

why ? why ? why?
why keep me around?
let me go,
i want to go,
i want to leave,
if i stay,    ..... i can't stay,
i am not sure what i feel,,,
i see you feel it too...
its un natural,,, supernatural,,,
let me go.. let me be..
let me be where i should be,,
let me go let me leave ....
but my heart is willing,,
but my flesh,,, my flesh its weak,,,


kk
5/6/2016

Oh, freedom

Oh, freedom, Oh, freedom,
Oh freedom over me.
And before I'd be a slave
I'd be buried in my grave
And go home to my Lord and be free.

No more weepin,(don't you know), no more weepin,
no more weepin over me.
And before I'd be a slave
I'd be buried in my grave
And go home to my Lord and be free.

Oh freedom,
Oh, freedom, Oh, freedom,
Oh freedom over me.
And before I'd be a slave
I'd be buried in my grave
And go home to my Lord and be free.

And before I'd be a slave
I'd be buried in my grave
And go home to my Lord and be free.

The Golden Gospel Singers
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=veiJLhXdwn8&list=RDn9JaQy6wfbE&index=2

even the blind dream

if you took my sight id still see,
true blindness is a process,
one doesn't just wake up blind,
without seeing,  in total darkness,
with no light just an abyss of nothing,
but there are those who are enlightened,
whose eyes can never shut,
who slumber between blinks,
and see without light,
they can never be blind,
they will always see,

life is one cruel mistress,
she enslaves us to the light,
without it we decay,
she plays our movie,
we act it out to her amusement,
just for folly,  to make her jolly,
no life, yet a lifetime,
no eyesight yet healthy eyeballs,

we must evade her,
we must wake from this slumber,
we are mere fools, asleep,
in a dream with plenty of light and sight,
but we forget that even the blind dream,
and their dreams more vivid than ours,
steadfast,  strong,  unweivered,
we are eternal, we cant be stopped,
lets wake up from these dreams that chase us from our reality,
we make our own reality,
never our circumstances.

kk
17-03-2016

greed

i thought maybe i dont write enough about myself,

im fixeted on how others affect my well being,

yet i claim to be trully indipendent,

act like i dont care what you think,

act like i am content with what i have,

its stupid to think that people just settle for less,

i want it all,

i am greedy,

i need your attention,

i crave more than your attention,

i desire your dominion,

and after i get it i still want more,

but its funny you want nothing from me,

you dont want my attention,

you dislike my passion,

you kill my advances,

you keep me like an inanimate object,

to be seen not to be felt.

i must be very selfish,

to want your heart and your body too,

gluttonous to want it all at the same time,

but greed is a common human vice,

the worst of its kind,

shallow in satisfaction with no real sense of accomplishment,

i am greedy because everyone out there is,

and if its not my drool thats all over you,

soon it will be another's,

because i cannot stand by 

and let others take what i want,

its the most painful feeling in the world.

kk

04/03/2016