the humblest man on earth

While I am not the meekest man in the world,

I know this much

Pride comes before a fall

But pride is such a big word

It’s like murder,

It’s the last thing anyone of us would like to be called,

Can one be proud and not know of it?

I am not sure

But the falling part

I am very sure about,

Maybe it’s due to the euphoria

The feeling of being ahead of your peers

Isn’t that pride?

But that’s what we chase after all our lives

Being ahead of the pack?

That’s sarcastic!

Animals that operate in packs care about the pack as a whole

There cannot exist pride in the ranks,

We desperately need approval from our peers,

Yet we always want to be ahead of them,

Never want them to be at par,

Pride, jealousy, all pages in the same book.

Moral dilemma?

I think not, I don’t know what causes this

But hey, let’s blame it on eve

That bitch cost everyone everything

So next time you think you aren’t proud,

Ask me, I won’t lie, I’ll tell you to your face.

But please don’t tell me if I am,

Because without your approval,

My self-esteem will drown.

And I with it,

For what is a man but his fellow men’s opinion of himself?

Kk

4/03/2015

To a dear friend, in the direst of need

To a dear friend, in the direst of need,

It may feel wrong,

It may feel like it’s all over

It may seem that all hope is lost

But don’t lose hope in your self

Ignore the world and build your own

Seek not to derive happiness from others

But from your own heart

If it was big enough for two

It should last you two life times

I hope I bring much needed comfort

For you have been among the many reasons I smile

I laugh, I love,

Be brave my dearest,

Face and conquer the world,

And like alexander mourn when there is no more to conquer

You are the bravest of hearts,

The strongest of souls,

I cannot help you across this bridge,

You must do it on your own.

But if you trip, clench the misty air

And I will stretch my hand to hold you

I will not forsake you

And when you join me on the other side

We will celebrate,

Tales of the one who conquered the world

To become their own person

So don’t lose sight of the finish line

And most of all don’t look back.

Trod on look to the end

And if the bridge collapses

I will send out my eagles to rescue you

If you find a troll guarding the bridge

I will shoot a spear right through his heart.

And when you join me, the stars will shine for us both,

But the sun will blow for you, the earth will smile,

For you have conquered the world!!

Dearest friend.

Kk

04/03/2015

Torture me

The mark on my head makes you ran away.
The scar on my blue heart makes you forsake me.
Though you feel it,  you continue to walk away.
Though you see me suffer,  you turn your back.
You are all I want and at the same time all I can never have.
If I could swim to get to you,  I wouldn't because you'd still deny me.
I'd write a million love songs but without your replies,  they'd be meaningless echoes.
I'd catch a grenade for you but you'd watch me die.
I am nothing to you and nothing pains me more than this.
All I could do is be thankful you are closeby. Though not by my side,  somewhere near my shadow,  though you'll never love me like I want you to.
I could make due with your pretty smile,  your lovely voice and your presence near me for the little time I have.
For this is my end,  an adjournment to my journey.
It certainly isn't my last,
But it's among my best.
I will not run away,
My presence in the shadows will errode anything we ever had.
My curse will carry on,
Torture me with another dangle I'll never get to.
My tears will dry up,  I'll be a distant memory,  an extinct species in your evolution.
But on my death bed I'll remember you,  remember your laughter,  your touch,  your face, among with the many others my hermatia has brought me across.
I'll shed a tear and give up, life's a bitch anyhow.
I'll never get what I want!!
Kk
3/03/2015